June 2009... not quite 3 1/2
January 2010... 4 years old
Last night, my friend texted me this verse...
She probably didn't realize that it came at the perfect time.
But it did.
I'm so sick of waiting.
Monday marked 6 months since we received PA for our sweet guy. For 6 months, we have been approved to adopt him, yet still we wait. We're nearing 7 months since we saw his precious face for the first time. He's growing, and we're waiting. I pray that God is preparing his heart as he waits. I know it's for a reason and I have no doubt that His timing is perfect.
But still. It's HARD.
Before we we heard of our LID, I was surprised at how much peace I had. Waiting 87 days for SOMETHING on Kate had been so very hard. It was still a bit fresh, and I had expected Charlie's even longer wait to be so much harder. But for the months that we paperchased, I had PEACE. And I am thankful for that. And then, we found out that we were LID. Finally, there was something we were waiting for. We found out on 12/18. 5 months from our PA. Then we celebrated Christmas, Charlie's birthday, and got an update. New pictures. Pictures showing that our little boy wasn't so little. He's growing and we aren't there to watch him. And that is hard.
I still have peace. I know God has our timeline in his hands. He has a perfect plan. But still, I am anxious. My heart is aching. There's a little boy who I love. And he's in China. We ordered some clothes for him and they came today... but he's not here to wear them.
I know HIS timing is perfect. Yet still, I am sad. I just want my sweet little brother home.
Oh that I might have my request... that God might grant me what I ask for... He tells us to hope, to ask, and He promises to answer those requests.
Please, Lord. May our LOA be here soon. And while we wait, prepare his little heart for what is to come.